Cat Hair everywhere Ran away But it’s still there Fat cat crying Hurricane Katrina survivor Feline PTSD sufferer Thirty days gone We thought the dog ate yer Ran out the door Always scared of your own shadow Never been outside before You were courageous that day though
Today is the anniversaries of both Hurricane Katrina and Hurricane Isaac, two storms that wreaked complete havoc in my state. Isaac less than Katrina, but still enough that lives and properties were lost and many things have still not been regained or re-established. Lots of people are posting remembrances today, but it’s a little more difficult for me to broach the subject. I was there, for work. With my husband, as he also worked for the same agency I did, and with my thin blue line family. Here is the short version I posted to my Facebook friends:
“8 years ago today I was on the front lines of one of the nation’s biggest disasters. Everything went to shit then got better. Trust that it’s something I won’t forget. The end.”
There is no way to describe the situation other than to say everything was terrible. If you’ve never experienced a natural disaster of that magnitude (which many folks around our planet have), then it’s hard to explain the feeling of loss that accompanies witnessing your entire life taken in as many minutes as years you’ve lived. Your town is gone. Your home is gone. Maybe your job is gone. And for the least fortunate people, your family members and friends are gone.
I feel fortunate. Not because today I will be experiencing the most severe PTSD ever, but because of what has been gained post-K. I’ve got a new home, new stuff, some of the old stuff that was salvageable( albeit a small amount), but most importantly I’ve gained a sense of what is most meaningful-the people I still have in my life. I was fortunate that I didn’t lose any family, even my cat and dog survived. The snake was lost, but I’m sure she slithered away in the water and is enjoying life in the woods somewhere living the life a corn snake deserves. I had a roof over my head, even though for some time that roof was that of the Cajun Queen, a paddle boat meant for short tours up and down the Mississippi River (Nothing like taking a shower with a hose on the deck of a boat in mid-October to wake you up!), and later a decommissioned ferry-boat where my husband and I shared bunk beds in an 8X8 cabin.
My thoughts and prayers and moments of silence go most to the less fortunate who did lose family members-some lost many in a moment, the people who couldn’t bear the burden that comes following such a travesty and took their own lives, those who weren’t able to recover and pined away for what was, and those who lived horrors worse than I and that I cannot even fathom. This empathy is not reserved for victims of Katrina or Isaac or any one particular thing. So many terrible events occur around the planet, and I agree with John Donne who wrote the words “No man is an island.”
I’ve long tried to accept the proverbial phrase “less is more”, and nothing has taught me to do that like Hurricane Katrina. What is stuff but meaningless collections of mass that can be lost in a matter of seconds? Katrina taught me what is most important to survival-physically, psychologically, and spiritually. My old home is gone, but I have a new home now. Man, am I thankful for that! I have food on my plate everyday. I have lots of great friends and family who are always there to help me, especially during the difficult times we more recently experienced after RB was diagnosed at 2 years old with brain cancer. Here is another short summary I shared on Facebook of what I was doing last year during Hurricane Isaac:
“A year ago today I was in Children’s Hospital, where we’d been for 8 months by then, during Isaac, in the dark going between trying to get weather updates on my phone and comforting RB who was still going through chemotherapy treatments at the time. Now we’re home, again things got better eventually. The end.”
Things have gotten better. RB is making progress everyday, and his scans have been stable for nearly a year. His next MRI is in September. There are no signs yet of the expected regression caused by the radiation and chemotherapy. He will soon get a homebound teacher and therapists who will come to our home and take over what I’ve been working on since February. He’s getting a stander and braces to help straighten his legs. We’re traveling down a very long path here, but there is an exit, and at this time, it is bathed in light.
So while today will be a day of reflection and bad memories, I would rather look forward than back. I would like to focus not on what was lost, but what has been gained, on what we’ve overcome and on our strength.
Anyone who’s been on the Internet in the last bazillionty years has surely noticed that it revolves around the feline species. I’m certain there is a main cat headquarters out there from where the entire Internet is generated. Cats are smart. smarter than most some people. And thanks to the ancient Egyptians, they have been evolved to expect the royal treatment.
Not everyone is a “cat person.” Many people dislike them – a lot. I think it’s because a person needs to have somewhat of a submissive nature in order to get cats. They certainly seem to view humans as a subspecies. We feed them, clean their poop, and we wait for just the right moment to give them affection. They let us know if they aren’t in “the mood”, usually with a scratch, bite, or scratch/bite combo. Cats have no regard for human beings, our wants, needs, desires, or sleeping patterns. It’s understandable how some folks may not go for that.
On the other hand, there are those of us who adore cats, and we don’t mind bowing to their air of superiority. We provide them with all possible amenities – treats, toys, catnip. They amuse us with their antics, then tell us to go eff off and hide for hours.
At any rate, those of us who love cats probably do so for one main reason – they are so stinking cute! And it’s for this reason I sincerely believe my blog needs more cats.
This is my cat, Stewie. He’s actually my former cat as he ran away from home just before Christmas. Hopefully someone took him in and is cuddling and loving him.
This is exactly what is looks like. A cat pencil sharpener. What were you thinking?
This is a LOL I made. I’m so clever.
Orion, also one of my former cats. This picture was taken at the animal hospital where he was admitted at the same time I was in the hospital giving birth. He’d eaten a toxic plant. He recovered but then was hit by a car some time later.
I hope everyone has enjoyed the cat gallery. My blog feels complete somehow.